We waited
Breath abated
For the tiny pink line.
Hope turned to fears
Fears to joyful tears
We were both
Laughin and cryin’
Appointments for anti-nates
Vitamins and foliates
Life turned to a brand new season
Family and friends and one and all
On numerous joyful visits and calls
Life was awesome for a reason.
Nausea and giddiness
And heart burn and indigestion
Lying in bed all day
Home made remedies
And lots of suggestions
From anyone who came our way
Maternity shopping
Baby shower planning
And searching for that perfect name
Long hours on the internet
Researches on everything
Became a routine game.
Our feet touched no ground
On our first ultrasound
When the doctor came out all sullen
“I see no movement
Of its hands nor feet
I don’t even detect a tiny heartbeat
I hate to tell you
Cannot hide it too
Your baby is a fallen !”
No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
Only God knows why!
I am walking on tight rope
But I lose no hope
You are my unfinished boon
I am still waiting
Breath abating
For I know you’ll
Come back to me soon.
I loved you
even before i knew you
-mamma
